Me & My Thoughts...

I sit and wonder,

If maybe I shouldn't be here.

I look at myself,

And wonder if maybe I deserve to die.

I sit and wonder,

If maybe,

Everyone will be better off without me.

Will I truly ever be happy?

Will I ever have love?

Will I ever love?

Then I look at little Drew,

And I see the innocence and trust.

I know that there is always some kind of love for me.

Such a tiny baby,

When he was born,

Now so long.

I know he loves me

In the way that only children can love.

I look at his mother,

My best friend,

And I see her love for me.

And I know that she will shed tears for me

Should I leave this world?

I look at my mother,

And wonder

What she would do without me

If I leave before her.

Then I look at Sonya,

And know that she to cares for me.

I know that she would feel the pain,

Like know one else,

Because that is her.

Then I once again look at myself.

I see what I can be,

With a little time and patience.

I know now that I have a bright future.

I hope and pray for God's guidance.

I have received it.

I am happy.

I am content.

I am,

Me.
I know that now.

I know that

You will stand next to me,

Making me happy.

Drew will grow

And give me happiness

As he says his first word.

I know that my mother

Will help me through all

The hard ships that are to come.

I know that God and Jesus is next to me,

Whispering words of encouragement

As I walk down my chosen path.

I know that I have truly been blessed.

I have found myself,

Have you?